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  Corpse. Dylan dragged his hand over his stubbled jaw, trying to digest the fact that he would never talk with Nate again. Never watch a ball game or play one-on-one at the local basketball court with his childhood buddy.

  Suicide. No matter how he tried, Dylan couldn’t comprehend Nate taking his own life.

  Through the shed’s open door traveled the scent of rain and the sound of water dripping from the eaves. The smell of rain would begin to ease the sickly odor of death.

  “I know O’Malley was a good friend of yours.” Lieutenant Liam Marks of the Bisbee Police Department approached and rested his hand on Dylan’s shoulder a moment. “Thanks for coming down to identify the body.”

  Dylan said nothing. His heart ached too much to speak.

  Marks gave Dylan a sympathetic look, releasing his shoulder and going back to doing his job.

  Nate’s face had been swollen and purple, his light blue eyes bloodshot and bulging. There had been enough of a resemblance for Dylan to confirm Nate’s identity.

  If it hadn’t been for G.I. Joe, Nate’s German shepherd, barking for hours in his dog run, the neighbors wouldn’t have called the police department to complain. The body likely wouldn’t have been found for days.

  Before going into the shed, Dylan had stopped by the dog run to check on Joe. Even though the dog run had a shelter on one end, the German shepherd stood out in the pouring rain. Because he knew Dylan well, Joe had calmed, but Dylan had seen the agitation in the dog. As Dylan had headed to the shed, Joe stood behind the fence, his keen eyes taking in everything happening. Nate had rescued the highly intelligent dog some time ago. Joe had been incredibly loyal to Nate ever since.

  It had been two months since Dylan had last seen Nate. Dylan had been working a case undercover and hadn’t been able to communicate with anyone outside of his job. He’d gotten home a few days ago but hadn’t had a chance to get together with his friend.

  And now Nate was dead.

  Dylan attempted to distance himself emotionally from Nate’s death, as if this wasn’t so damned hard to take. Dylan knew he had to compartmentalize the fact that Nate had been one of his closest friends from the time they’d been in elementary school. He was aware he had to focus on what had happened and why and make some kind of sense of it, if only for his own sake.

  Conversation around him faded to background noise as he moved past the overturned bucket Nate had been standing on prior to knocking it out from beneath himself. Dylan wanted to aim one of his boots at the bucket and kick the shit out of it, but he controlled the urge and continued toward his destination.

  A suicide note had been scrawled on ledger paper and lay on a workbench. Dylan pulled on a surgical glove, then took the note off the bench to study the writing. Even before becoming a federal agent, he’d always had an eye for detail. He hadn’t seen Nate’s handwriting for a while but he recognized it. Nate had written the note.

  The shakiness of the writing was likely from nerves over what he’d been about to do. The ledger paper made sense since he’d been an accountant. Even in this day and age of computer technology, Nate hadn’t completely been able to give up scrawling figures by hand on paper. He’d said it helped him think.

  The idea Nate had committed suicide didn’t make sense. He’d been so damned stable. A rock. Lately he’d seemed a little off, but Dylan had attributed it to the fact Nate had been facing a federal tax audit on his business. Had Nate killed himself over the audit? Dylan didn’t believe that for a minute.

  Dylan resisted crumpling the note in his hand and the paper shook with the effort it took to restrain himself. He hooked one thumb in the pocket of his Wrangler jeans as he stared at the paper without seeing it.

  Out of the Circle of Seven, Nate had been the one Dylan had remained close friends with, even after all this time. Dylan had bumped into Marta De La Paz and Tom Zumsteg in Bisbee at separate times, and they’d filled him in on how Leon Petroski and Christie Simpson-Reyes were doing. Leon owned a water well drilling business and Christie did clerical work in her husband’s office. Marta worked hard as a stay-at-home mom of two. Tom had taken a position as a physician at Copper Queen Community Hospital in Bisbee after working at Tucson Medical Center for a number of years.

  Most of them lived in close proximity, yet they never got together.

  As for Belle… No one mentioned her to Dylan. Talking about her would be too painful, even with so much time gone by.

  Now Dylan would have to call Belle to tell her about Nate. He’d have to reach every one of the Circle, but the thought of speaking to Belle caused his stomach to churn even more. Through his work connections, long after she’d left, he’d kept track of but never contacted her. Still, he hadn’t been able to help himself from checking to make sure nothing happened to her. He knew she worked in the restaurant business but hadn’t delved any deeper.

  Twenty-three years ago she’d run away from home…and from him. He had been unable to forgive himself and he still couldn’t forget or put aside what they’d once had, no matter how young they’d been.

  The suicide note came into focus as Dylan clenched his jaw and read it once again.

  My friends,

  Today I take my own life due to my guilt over the many wrongs I have committed against myself and against all of you. I am sorry for any pain I may cause you by my actions.

  CoS always,

  Nate

  “Agent Curtis, does CoS mean anything to you?” a female BPD detective spoke, drawing Dylan’s attention from the note.

  He looked at Detective Teri Jensen, who stood five-foot-one at best and thirty-five years old at most. “Circle of Seven,” Dylan said. “A group of seven who have known one another since elementary school.” Dylan let out a slow breath. “They bonded when they were young and referred to themselves as CoS.”

  “You were one of the seven.” Jensen spoke quietly, with certainty and understanding in her voice.

  He gave a slow nod. “Yeah, I was.”

  “It’s a terrible way to lose someone you care about.” Her expression saddened. “I lost a family member to suicide a few years ago. You never get over it. All losses of family and friends are difficult, but there’s something terribly personal and painful about suicide in a way that’s different from any other kind of loss.”

  “Yes.” Dylan had never experienced it for himself before, but from the pain now inside, he knew her words were true.

  “I know it’s tough, but do you mind if I ask you some questions?” Jensen pulled out a smart phone with a large screen and detached the stylus.

  Dylan had expected this. He just hadn’t known which detective would be doing the questioning. “Go ahead.”

  “He states guilt over wrongs he has committed.” She studied Dylan. “Do you know what wrongs he’s talking about?”

  Dylan shook his head. “Nate’s always been a stand-up guy. I can’t imagine him doing anything serious enough to take his own life, much less committing wrongs against his friends.”

  Jensen made a note on her device. “From what I understand, Nate had no immediate family members.”

  Dylan thought about Nate’s rough past. “The courts sent Nate to live with his grandmother at an early age, after his parents disappeared. His grandmother couldn’t have been prouder when he graduated high school with honors, but she passed days later, leaving him with no family.”

  Jensen held her stylus over her screen. “Tell me what you know about his parents.”

  “Not much.” Dylan thought back to the early days, when Nate and the others had come together and named themselves the CoS. “Law enforcement tracked his parents to the Mexican border, where they crossed and vanished. They could have been dead for all Nate knew.”

  Jensen made another note on her device. “He mentions the CoS in the letter. Why do you think that is?”

  Dylan pushed up the brim of his Stetson. “Those of us in the CoS were Nate’s only real family.” Dylan thought about the time the seven of them had
truly bonded. “That’s my best guess. I’m going to have to give it more thought.”

  The detective asked a few more questions and Dylan answered each one even though he’d rather have been left to his own thoughts and conducting his own investigation.

  Jensen clipped her stylus into its place and put away her phone. “If you come up with anything, here’s my number.” She pulled a card out of an inside pocket of her blazer and handed it to Dylan. “Office and cell numbers are both on it.”

  “I’ll do that.” Dylan took out his billfold and tucked the card inside for safekeeping with his credentials, pocketing them again after.

  He set the suicide note back on the workbench as Jensen walked away. Since photographs had already been taken before Dylan had touched the note, an officer came and bagged and tagged it. He pulled off the surgical glove and stuffed it into his pocket.

  Dylan didn’t look back as he walked out of the shed and into the rain. Water pounded down, soaking his overshirt, T-shirt and jeans. His boots squished in the mud. The Stetson protected his head and water dripped from the brim.

  Several law enforcement and emergency response vehicles were parked around the scene. Dylan focused on walking from the shed and the short distance toward Nate’s home, which he had inherited from his grandmother. Dylan jogged up the stairs to the door. It had been left open for BPD officers, who were collecting information to make sure no evidence of foul play could be found. Reaching the porch, he wiped his muddy boots on the welcome mat and shook the rain off his Stetson.

  The smell of paint and new carpeting hit Dylan first thing when he walked into the house. He held his hat in his hand as he stood inside the doorway and surveyed the room.

  Nate had always been a disaster when it came to his home, at total odds with his perfectionism in the world of accounting. He had worked out of his home and visited clients rather than having clients come to him. His office had always been more organized than the rest of his house.

  Dylan had thought of Nate as something of an enigma. He hadn’t looked like a stereotypical accountant—no pocket protector and no button-down shirts or slacks. He’d been all about jeans and T-shirts unless he had to meet with the IRS to handle an audit or visit clients’ offices.

  Nate had been more compact than Dylan and not quite as muscular. He’d stood just four inches shorter than Dylan’s six-three. Nate had been popular with the ladies and liked to party but had never married and had never had kids. After high school and the CoS drifting apart, Nate hadn’t let anyone get close to him except Dylan. Even then he knew Nate had kept secrets.

  But secrets big enough to commit suicide over?

  Dylan let his gaze drift over the living room and calculated the variables. A mess of objects littered the room, but the new carpet, freshly painted walls and dust-free surfaces told another story. The mess didn’t appear natural, but more as if someone had arranged things to appear out of place.

  He frowned. A mess that looked intentional didn’t make one damned bit of sense, but neither did the new carpet and painted walls, or lack of dust. Not too long ago, Nate had made a comment that he wanted to dump his grandmother’s house. He’d even said he didn’t plan to put any work into the place because he didn’t have the time, the skill or the money it would take. He must have had a change of heart, because the living room seemed better than it ever had.

  Yet something didn’t feel right. He gripped his Stetson as he walked past a couple of BPD officers and gave them a nod. He set his hat out of the way, and spent the next ten minutes searching the room for something that might confirm what instinct told him.

  When he didn’t find anything, he walked through parts of the house that better reflected Nate’s personality. In the master bedroom, clothes lay scattered across the floor, piles of laundry needed to be washed and stacks of books rose haphazardly from every surface. Thick layers of dust covered the dining room table and buffet.

  Nate’s home wouldn’t qualify for Hoarders and Dylan wouldn’t call the place disgusting by any means. Nate just hadn’t cared about keeping a clean house.

  Dylan opened the door to the room serving as Nate’s home office. Again surprise caused him to pause. Nate had kept the place spotless and organized, but today it appeared disordered and somewhat messy.

  Dylan pulled out a pair of surgical gloves. “Now let’s have a look and see what we can find. Did you leave anything, buddy?” He didn’t have any clue what that something might be, but he needed some way to make sense of this.

  As he poked around the office, he had the odd feeling someone had been there, searching for something.

  After examining the desk, which had a desktop computer, he paused for a moment, wondering where Nate had stored his laptop. Dylan spent a few moments searching drawers and cabinets but didn’t find anything.

  He went to the bookshelf and ran his gloved finger over the titles, mostly classics. Nate had loved to read. Dylan stopped when he came to one book sticking out by half an inch past the others on the shelf. He recognized it at once by the name on the spine and he felt an odd twist in his gut.

  Baseball, An Informal History.

  Nate had carried the book around with him in school. It had been the last gift his father had given to him before he’d disappeared with Nate’s mother.

  Dylan’s heart clenched as he carefully withdrew the book from the shelf. Tears in the well-worn book jacket exposed the hard cover beneath.

  He went to the copyright page and saw the publisher had printed the hardcover in 1969, long before Nate’s father had given it to him. He continued on through the yellowed pages but stopped because something dropped out of the book and hit the floor. He crouched to pick up a postcard of Main Street in Old Bisbee. When he turned it over, he saw his own name and address printed in Nate’s handwriting. In the space to the left of the address he’d written a note.

  Dylan,

  While you’re off on vacation, I’m stuck here in good ol’ Bisbee. I want you to promise me something. Remember what you had, buddy. If it happens, second chances only come once. Don’t let it pass you by.

  Hey, remember when I served in Iraq? At the risk of sounding like a lovesick teenage girl, I missed your surly ass then too.

  WYB,

  Nate

  Cold prickles ran up and down Dylan’s spine as he stared at the postcard. Not only had he read something from the dead, but Nate had gotten one big detail wrong. Nate hadn’t served in Iraq. He’d served in Afghanistan. He’d received the Purple Heart because he’d ended up with a leg full of shrapnel, along with an honorable discharge.

  Dylan took a plastic evidence bag out of his pocket, dropped the postcard in, then sealed it. He knew he should give the postcard to the BPD, but instead he shoved the bagged card into his pocket. It couldn’t be seen beneath the overshirt that also covered his service weapon, a Desert Eagle .357 Magnum. The postcard was between him and Nate and Dylan didn’t intend to leave it for the BPD to take over before he had a chance to study it.

  He stood and slid the book once again into its place on the bookshelf then ran his finger along the spine. What the hell had been going through Nate’s mind for him to have written that note? He shook his head and turned to leave the room. Dylan strode through the office doorway and closed the door behind him. The postcard in his back pocket seemed to physically weigh him down.

  Iraq? Maybe Nate had drunk too much beer when he’d written the note. Dylan frowned. No, Nate would have to have been beyond plastered to mess up something like that. But why would he purposely make the mistake?

  Dylan found it difficult to put the postcard and the questions out of his mind. He did his best and went into the kitchen, where Nate had left a few dirty dishes piled in the sink with several more stacked on the counters. Empty takeout and pizza boxes lay scattered on the surfaces and the kitchen table and crammed into a tall garbage container.

  He used a dishtowel to open the fridge, keeping his fingerprints off the handle, and peeked i
nside. The only things on the shelves were a range of condiments and more takeout boxes from local restaurants and delis, as well as Bisbee’s best-known pizza place, the Puma Den. He studied the kitchen, seeing Nate in everything.

  Joe’s leash hung from a hook by the refrigerator. Nate had always been good about taking the dog for walks.

  Returned to the living room, Dylan felt a twinge in his gut again.

  Something was definitely off.

  He squinted along the baseboards, which had not been painted like everything else had. Strange. His gaze came to stop on a dark circle, a tiny spatter he hadn’t noticed before. He moved to the baseboard and crouched to study the dime-sized spatter. The dark substance could be dried blood.

  Detective Jensen walked into the house just as Dylan looked up. Jensen appeared to read Dylan’s expression and headed toward him.

  She came to a stop beside him. “Surprised you’re still here, Agent Curtis.”

  He stood, towering over the petite detective, and gestured to the spot. “I believe that’s a blood spatter.” He made a motion to encompass the room and explained about Nate and the conclusion he’d come to. “I’ve got a feeling the new paint and carpet is a cleanup job.” He explained about Nate not planning to make improvements on the house and its general appearance before.

  Jensen frowned then nodded slowly. “We’ll take care of it and I’ll give you a call when everything is processed.”

  “Thank you.” He gave her a grim nod. “Just to let you know, I’m taking the dog until I can find him a home.”

  She nodded. “He needs a good home now.”

  Dylan went to the kitchen and took the leash from its hook. He returned to the living room and picked up his hat from where he’d left it.

  He settled his Stetson on his head and touched the brim as he inclined his head toward Jensen in a brief nod. His mind continued to work over the death of his friend while he turned to walk out of the house.

  Dylan reached the bottom of the stairs and stood in the rain to regard Joe sitting in the dog run. A doghouse stood at one end, but the shepherd clearly had no interest in it. With the leash in his hand, Dylan walked toward the run.